No Day But Today...

If yesterday felt like Friday already, today feels like it should be Friday again.  I'm running out of steam and fast.  Other than this extremely annoying powerpoint I'm putting together for Thursday, I've given up trying to do anything of substance this week.  I honestly don't even know where the time goes...I got home around 5, ate, took a shower, straightened my hair and finished half of the presentation and it's 11 and I'm struggling just to keep my eyes open after a day of only one class and a group meeting. What gives dammit?!

The past couple of days I've been texting back and forth with a friend (I'll loosely consider him this) who last spring I went out with a couple times, decided it wasn't going to work, and most likely did him some permanent damage.  I feel bad, but in truth, I wasn't ready for anything, and we both had different expectations and I wasn't ready to move that quickly or into a world that was quite different from my own and my life has hardly been one of stability the past several years where I can give someone part of myself.  Needless to say, I know I hurt him, and I wish there had been a better way to end things.  Anyway, since then, we've remained in contact and the past couple days we've been texting each other back and forth and it's been nice to just have someone to chat with where there are no expectations placed on me to be the one who's centered and in-control...but just to be.  I love my best friends so much it hurts, but I'm often the one with the role of comforter or self-esteem booster or shoulder to cry on etc and not that I don't love it - I love being able to help the ones I love, but sometimes, it's nice to be able to not have that role and like I said just be.

Anyway, after that little interesting tidbit, I think I'm off to bed. I have an early start in the morning, a long day ahead of me and it will all look better with a little more sleep on my side.

ps. ONLY 3 MORE DAYS UNTIL READING WEEK!!!! (Can you tell I desperately need a break?)

xo